I have a friend who grew up with me.Not really grew up with me he's actually grew up with my Cousin's and relative haha.. ya ya ya . It never come across my mind that he will be closer to me thought of him just as a friend
until last month, when i was in Sibu.. Doing Something Stupid...trying to solve my Bad situation on myself.. (oh my english) we went for an unplanned trip. I found that he treat me very unusual..ya unusual (in the sense of very good) . Before that i was on Still in Sibu just about to planned to Go back to kuching i was on the phone with him.Somehow He took a step and confessed his Love for me. And soon, we became a pair of
lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.He always concentrated on me only, but by
my side, there were so many other guys.im not being a playgurl, is just that im avoiding things happen to me for the 2nd or 3rd time. To him, i am the only one, but to me, maybe he is just another new guy in my life…
“Baby, do you want to go watch a movie?” He asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to work kah?” with his disappointment voice
“No… I am going to meet a friend…
i know im always like that.
To me, he was just a boyfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from his
mouth. Since I knew him, I dont think he ever heard me saying ‘I love you’ before. . its hard for me to say the 3magic words.. i dont know why maybe because the pain i still have in my heart.. haha didn’t say anything
from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Sounds so long kan? Everyday,
before he say goodbye, he would just hand say the 3 magic words, everyday, without
fail. I don’t know why…i still cant say it to him
Then one day…
Me: Um, b, I …
HIm: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, u really?
That
was how he answered my ‘three words’ and something went on.. where.. that's a secret between us haha..Ok dont be dirty minded ya. after that incident every morning When I got up in the morning, I
pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for
his call.Imagine myself with all this wedding Gowns geess.. i think if he knows what im thinking then he will be like OMG But… haha there's a but too.. it is not as happy as what u guys think.. im my heart there's still Hanis and all my past stories still haunted me.. wargh.. haunted somemore. haha
Him : Baby, u need to make up ur mind, Past is past. dont let it still be in ur heart (i think something wrong haha)
Me: Erm..
Again, he Keep on trying to convince me..
Me: well, its hard for me to rubbed away all this...
Him: I'm not trying to pust u, but somehow, u shud love someone who really loves u, not hoping for someone who never loves u but criticized on u or even blackmailed u to others
Me: Wait, wait! What do u mean?
Him: U know what im talking about..
I
felt so uneasy and so guilty.,Suddenly i said … “Wait…”
Him: You have something to say?
Me: Do u really Love me? and y? (in my heart it goes like Tell me, tell me you love me…)
Him: Of course i do with no reason
Me: ok thanks
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and im like kinda melted haha
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That
was what i said to him. Maybe he is not the right guy for me…i think
After that day, I
stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He called me like so many times, although
I was waiting.but with my huge and big egos, i just try to be like im so innocent He just continued calling me non stop
After
a week, I got myself on the right track and i manage to forget and overcome all my fear together and went to work as usual. But what made the
pain resurface was that… I heard about "him" on a street…that him is not the Staring of my story.. i guess u guys know who is that He
had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me… I drove straight back home and locked and cried as usual.. luckily i finished my shift and
tears fell… Why did God gave these to me……In a fit of anger, I threw my pillows around including my lovely 'nanau' around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him (the actual staring).But i didnt answer, so we just text I tried to calm myself down and at last im ok. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him for the new Him,
that… it’s going to end.
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon,
Me: I don’t u i guess
Jin: What….why…?
I stop the conversation in a rude way
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
“I love you~, I love you~” was all his words..
“I….lo..ve…you??”
“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be!
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those
words came out non-stop. I…love you…from his mouth Why didn’t I realize that….That
his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize
that he love me this much…
The
tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I have to do all this
For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life ..... haha
erm its a love story actually but haha... erm no idea ma...now i have a Beautiful Necklasce with the letter G like he said though is on RMXX.XX but all the efforts are there... same goes to my Ring .. haha end of the story.. so i guess u guys know what's the ending right